Not For My Glory

Updated: Aug 2

When it comes to our lives, and specifically disciple making, is our purpose for going forth God Himself and his glory or is it something else — people’s approval, our own sense of self-righteousness, the idea that God will make our lives comfortable and successful if we obey Him? This is a question we all need to ask ourselves.

In today’s blog, we’re going to look at the latest episode of the CDM Podcast — “Not For My Glory,” by Paul Watson — and think about why we follow Jesus and make disciples.


But If Not…


When threatened with a fiery death by King Nebuchadnezzar for not worshiping the golden image he had created, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego answered and said to the king, “O Nebuchadnezzar, we have no need to answer you in this matter. If this be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and he will deliver us out of your hand, O king. But if not, be it known to you, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the golden image that you have set up.” (Daniel 3:16-18)


In the face of certain death, these three men had no doubt that the Lord could deliver them, but they accepted the very real possibility that He might not. Regardless of what God chose to do, their minds were made up. They would not bow down to the idol and sin against Him. God was their treasure, their purpose and they would live and die, if necessary, in a manner that reflected that.


Can we say the same?


In the podcast, Paul Watson shares a story about when he got a call from his dad, who told him that he had just been diagnosed with stage four colon cancer. This was a man who had spent decades serving the lost, starting movements among unreached people groups and faithfully obeying Christ.


To Paul, it seemed like such a waste for God to do this, particularly to someone who should’ve had a good many years left to further His kingdom. And yet, there his father was, likely going to die from a very aggressive and painful form of cancer.


As Paul wrestled with this, he heard God clearly ask him, “If I choose to take your father home to be with me now, will you still love me?”


In that moment, Paul was reminded of his family’s motto, taken from the story about Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego. It was the phrase, “But if not.”


It was then that he truly felt the weight of those words, of the reality that God had the power to heal his father but was asking Paul if his love was dependent upon his prayer being answered how he wanted.